Not deciding is deciding

You owe it to all of us to get on with what you’re good at.    W. H. Auden

This quote was a page-stopper for me.

It comes at a time when I am weighing options in my life.

There is what I want to do.  Quit my job and pursue other interests.

I tell myself at least once a day that I should quit and do something else.

Then there is what I feel I should do.  Stay at the job and try to contain work to a reasonable amount of time in my day and space in my brain.  So far, not happening.

I need to learn some Jedi mind tricks.

What I am good at?  Writing, communicating, helping others, finding solutions, taking care of loved ones.  Even if I am not first-rate at anything, there are many things I enjoy doing such as writing (I always come back to that), painting, playing the piano, learning computer science.

All take time and a full-time job doesn’t allow for much free time.

Everybody’s doing it

I have many friends who are retired.  I am just tired.

I want to step out in faith that the future will be OK, that I have saved enough, that I will not regret my decision.

My friend’s younger sister (40ish) was killed suddenly in a car accident a few weeks ago. A terrible reminder of the uncertainty of our time on earth.

My friend who retired in December hates it.  Other friends love it.

A man and his wife recently retired and downsized.  As he put it, “We want to make tnese decisions while we are still able rather than have someone else make them for us.”

If I look hard and long enough,  I will find arguments pro and con for quitting my job.

Every day brings me closer to starting a new life.

The question is will I let fate decide (illness, accident, industry changes) or will I be the captain of my ship?

My heart longs to travel down peaceful, quiet roads.

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~Photo Pexels.com Kaique Rocha~

Your thoughts?

 

Breaking my fast

 

I am trying to eat good food when I “break my fast” but, it’s not always easy mainly due to lack of time and a bit of laziness.

I don’t want to cook first thing in the morning and I don’t want to clean up afterwards.

However, I do want to eat well. Continue reading “Breaking my fast”

Thank you Chip Bergh

My eight year old grandson fears being shot at school thanks to the recent and continuing gun violence in our schools.

He experienced two lock downs at his elementary school in Denver, Colorado this spring.

His school was closed when the Columbine copycat appeared on the scene and again when a shooting occurred at another school.

He is eight years old.

Continue reading “Thank you Chip Bergh”

Thoughts on blogging…

What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. Ecclesiastes 1:9 New International Version (NIV)

I blog about my experiences.
I reveal my fears.
I share my happiness and my insights.

My concerns are nothing new to mankind. Continue reading “Thoughts on blogging…”

It’s all good…

Yesterday’s meeting of our bookclub left me feeling wonderful.  Continue reading “It’s all good…”

Forget Cargo Pants

“If you look back (at) pictures of women who have strong style, you will never find pictures of a cargo pant.”     French designer Johanna Senyk*

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A model wearing cargo pants on the Prabal Gurung spring 2019 runway Victor VIRGILE https://www.glamour.com/gallery/best-cargo-pants-for-women

Continue reading “Forget Cargo Pants”

Carpe Diem, kind of

He knows what it is to know.

Lucretius, Roman Poet & Philospher, c 94BC – c 55BC

Lucretius
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Continue reading “Carpe Diem, kind of”

Badass Woman

“The ultimate badass reaches back and brings other women with her.” Lisa Jackson

Music, Familiar

I woke up early. I did not want to get up but I did convincing myself that I would feel even worse staying in bed.  

I forced myself to dress, go downstairs, make a cup of coffee, drink some water and sit by the fire for a few minutes. This routine is how I start most of my days and have for years.   

This is my comfortable “rut”. Continue reading “Music, Familiar”

One hand clapping

The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function.    F. Scott Fitzgerald,  American Novelist

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