There was a new nurse today at my doctor’s office.
She was young and eager to please.
She had trouble taking my blood pressure.
I didn’t mind, but she was flustered.
She succeeded the second time.
She was pleased, then puzzled and then upset to see me in tears…
Of course, it had nothing to do with her…
It’s just that she was young. Continue reading “An Encounter”
“When you are in the midst of a fog and can’t see the shoreline, you need a compass. Reach out to a trusted friend or adviser for perspective. People are not hard-wired to go it alone. They need others to survive and thrive.” — Edward T. Creagan, M.D. Mayo Clinic
I am fighting the fog that has descended ever since my daughter-in-law entered hospice care a few days ago.
I am thankful to friends, family and neighbors who are helping me to bear the pain.
I grieve for her stuck down by this terrible disease at such a young age.
I grieve for her husband, my son, as he watches his family torn apart.
I grieve for their toddler who will not have her mother as she grows up.
There will be happiness again one day, but, for now, we are struggling to keep the shore in sight.
I am trying to do at least one good deed per day.
No, I am not working toward a Girl Scout badge.
It’s just that in my world and in the world at large, I find that giving and helping others satisfies my soul.
It satisfies my soul while grounding me during the emotional upheaval of my young daugher-in-law’s cancer struggle. Stage 4.
I believe that I am making a difference. Continue reading “Helping myself and others…”
Out for a walk this morning, my heart is heavy.
My daughter-in-law starts two weeks of brain radiation today. Continue reading “Unexpected Figures”
Happiness.
Not in another place but this place.
Not for another hour but this hour.
~Walt Whitman, American Poet, 1819-1892 Continue reading “Carpe Diem”
Many of you know that our lives are in limbo waiting for a new treatment plan for my daughter-in-law. Continue reading “Still waiting…”
I feel so helpless. I can’t do anything about my daughter-in-law’s cancer other than pray and be there for her, my son and their toddler. Continue reading “My heart is heavy”
I am coming back.
I have not posted in awhile.
I have had great ideas. I have written articles in my mind as I walked with my dog Ginny.
But putting paper to pen or fingers to computer has not happened. Continue reading “I am coming back”
At my annual physical exam, my doctor shared with me the story of a small growth that he had ignored years ago.
He was too busy in medical school to have to have it removed.
The day of my husband’s funeral the sun was shining.
The sky was blue with little wisps of clouds.
The air was crisp.
It was a beautiful day.
