Not deciding is deciding

You owe it to all of us to get on with what you’re good at.    W. H. Auden

This quote was a page-stopper for me.

It comes at a time when I am weighing options in my life.

There is what I want to do.  Quit my job and pursue other interests.

I tell myself at least once a day that I should quit and do something else.

Then there is what I feel I should do.  Stay at the job and try to contain work to a reasonable amount of time in my day and space in my brain.  So far, not happening.

I need to learn some Jedi mind tricks.

What I am good at?  Writing, communicating, helping others, finding solutions, taking care of loved ones.  Even if I am not first-rate at anything, there are many things I enjoy doing such as writing (I always come back to that), painting, playing the piano, learning computer science.

All take time and a full-time job doesn’t allow for much free time.

Everybody’s doing it

I have many friends who are retired.  I am just tired.

I want to step out in faith that the future will be OK, that I have saved enough, that I will not regret my decision.

My friend’s younger sister (40ish) was killed suddenly in a car accident a few weeks ago. A terrible reminder of the uncertainty of our time on earth.

My friend who retired in December hates it.  Other friends love it.

A man and his wife recently retired and downsized.  As he put it, “We want to make tnese decisions while we are still able rather than have someone else make them for us.”

If I look hard and long enough,  I will find arguments pro and con for quitting my job.

Every day brings me closer to starting a new life.

The question is will I let fate decide (illness, accident, industry changes) or will I be the captain of my ship?

My heart longs to travel down peaceful, quiet roads.

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Your thoughts?

 

Thoughts on blogging…

What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. Ecclesiastes 1:9 New International Version (NIV)

I blog about my experiences.
I reveal my fears.
I share my happiness and my insights.

My concerns are nothing new to mankind. Continue reading “Thoughts on blogging…”

It’s all good…

Yesterday’s meeting of our bookclub left me feeling wonderful.  Continue reading “It’s all good…”

Carpe Diem, kind of

He knows what it is to know.

Lucretius, Roman Poet & Philospher, c 94BC – c 55BC

Lucretius
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Continue reading “Carpe Diem, kind of”

Music, Familiar

I woke up early. I did not want to get up but I did convincing myself that I would feel even worse staying in bed.  

I forced myself to dress, go downstairs, make a cup of coffee, drink some water and sit by the fire for a few minutes. This routine is how I start most of my days and have for years.   

This is my comfortable “rut”. Continue reading “Music, Familiar”

Help Me Out Here, Einstein

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When I consider that Nelson Mandela was imprisoned for over 24 years, I think what a long time that was.  It seems inconceivable.

When I consider that my husband died at 58 years it does not seem nearly long enough. A life cut short. Continue reading “Help Me Out Here, Einstein”

A Debt to Pay Gladly

The frost performs its secret ministry, Unhelped by any wind.*

It is so cold today.
I am inside wearing a heavy sweater as I type.

I sip hot coffee and enjoy dark chocolate as I start my day. Continue reading “A Debt to Pay Gladly”

Thoughts on Blogging

 

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What has been will be again

What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. *

I blog about my experiences.

I reveal my fears.

I share my happiness, my sorrows and my insights.  

My concerns are nothing new to mankind.   Continue reading “Thoughts on Blogging”

Steinbeck on Evil

All the goodness and the heroisms will rise up again, then be cut down again and rise up. It isn’t that the evil thing wins – it never will-but that it doesn’t die. John Steinbeck

I lost my job…

They sold the company?

I couldn’t believe it when I heard the news in mid-November.

The company was sold and everything would close on December 31st.

In six weeks, I would be out of a job.

Then to add insult to injury, the company decided to close on December 14th.  Continue reading “I lost my job…”