Unknown blessings…

Give thanks for unknown blessings that are already on their way.  ~Native American prayer

Blessings I know about.

  1. The love of family.
  2. The love of friends both near and far.
  3. My sweet dog Ginny.
  4. My good health.
  5. My warm house.

The unknown blessings will be a joy unexpected.

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At the end of another day

While  my daughter-in-law was fighting for her life, my life was on hold.

For over for three years.

I could not commit to anything.

I was always ready to help when needed.

Now that she has passed, I have the freedom to plan a trip, enroll in a course…fun things.

But, I have no energy and very little interest.

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Life is out of focus.

I know that this will pass.

But, for now I am in the throes of making it through each day.

I am walking and walking and walking.

I am working at my job.

I do yoga most days.

I try to meditate but with little success so I listen to classical music.

I cook dishes that require lots of dicing and slicing.

I clean out closets and drawers.

I am treading water waiting for my energy to return.

Treading water doesn’t move me closer to shore but it beats sinking.

Am I treading or flailing about?

Note to self. Not very well-written. I will do better when my feet touch bottom and I can stumble to shore.

Traveling Mercies

 

That’s what priests say when a person is departing.

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Tuesday, 9.24.2019

Hello friends,

I am currently the daily caretaker for my terminally-ill daughter in law.

She is at home in hospice care.

Our days go on mostly unchanged.

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The American Way…

Before we had children, my husband and I argued about emigrating to Canada.

I did not want to raise my children in the U.S. in the 1980s because I did not like our military industrial culture.

That was before the mass shootings and outrageously expensive health care came on the scene.  Continue reading “The American Way…”

What we did not want…

 

~Foggy Lake Photo by Gabriela Palai/Pexel.com~

“When you are in the midst of a fog and can’t see the shoreline, you need a compass. Reach out to a trusted friend or adviser for perspective. People are not hard-wired to go it alone. They need others to survive and thrive.” — Edward T. Creagan, M.D.  Mayo Clinic

I am fighting the fog that has descended ever since my daughter-in-law entered hospice care a few days ago.

I am thankful to friends, family and neighbors who are helping me to bear the pain.

I grieve for her stuck down by this terrible disease at such a young age.

I grieve for her husband, my son, as he watches his family torn apart.

I grieve for their toddler who will not have her mother as she grows up.

There will be happiness again one day, but, for now, we are struggling to keep the shore in sight.

 

 

 

Everyone has setbacks…

“Everyone has setbacks, disappointments and missed opportunities.

But wallowing in the past and focusing on the negatives is a sure way to doom your future.

So put the past behind you and embrace today as the beginning of your new season.” — Edward T. Creagan, M.D. Mayo Clinic

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A World Worthy of Its Children

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“You must all work – we must all work
to make this world worthy of its children.”  Pablo Casals Continue reading “A World Worthy of Its Children”

This too shall pass

I used to become annoyed when older people would respond to my lamentations about a problem with the comment “This too shall pass.”

I felt that they were making light of something that was important and possibly earth-shattering.

I felt as though they did not care.

I felt dismissed.

I felt unheard.

I felt angry.

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Everyone hustles his life along

I am fascinated by Seneca who wrote about how to live centuries ago.

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“Everyone hustles his life along, and is troubled by a longing for the future and weariness of the present.  But the man who … organizes every day as though it were his last, neither longs for nor fears the next day… Continue reading “Everyone hustles his life along”