An Encounter

There was a new nurse today at my doctor’s office.

She was young and eager to please.

She had trouble taking my blood pressure.

I didn’t mind, but she was flustered.

She succeeded the second time.

She was pleased, then puzzled and then upset to see me in tears…

Of course, it had nothing to do with her…

It’s just that she was young. Continue reading “An Encounter”

What we did not want…

 

~Foggy Lake Photo by Gabriela Palai/Pexel.com~

“When you are in the midst of a fog and can’t see the shoreline, you need a compass. Reach out to a trusted friend or adviser for perspective. People are not hard-wired to go it alone. They need others to survive and thrive.” — Edward T. Creagan, M.D.  Mayo Clinic

I am fighting the fog that has descended ever since my daughter-in-law entered hospice care a few days ago.

I am thankful to friends, family and neighbors who are helping me to bear the pain.

I grieve for her stuck down by this terrible disease at such a young age.

I grieve for her husband, my son, as he watches his family torn apart.

I grieve for their toddler who will not have her mother as she grows up.

There will be happiness again one day, but, for now, we are struggling to keep the shore in sight.

 

 

 

Dealing With Stress…

I am under a lot of stress.

My daughter-in-law has stage 4 cancer.

I started a new job recently which is not going well.  I lost my job…

It is cold outside.

Continue reading “Dealing With Stress…”

Belle

Belle is an old dog of unknown heritage, beloved by my son.

He and Belle found each other in the months shortly after my husband/his father died. Continue reading “Belle”

A Google Prompt

The pop up on my smartphone was timely.

“Reach out to a friend”  was the reminder from Google that I programmed a few months ago.  Continue reading “A Google Prompt”

Child Labor

With the high cost of cancer treatment, it is important that all of our family pitch in and help!

Continue reading “Child Labor”

Gratitude

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~Photo http://www.pexels.com/Pixabay. Heart & “2” added by Lori Greer

Today is my granddaughter’s second birthday.

Today is special because it is her birthday.

Today is very special because her mother is alive to celebrate with her Continue reading “Gratitude”

Helping myself and others…

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I am trying to do at least one good deed per day.

No, I am not working toward a Girl Scout badge.

It’s just that in my world and in the world at large, I find that giving and helping others satisfies my soul.

It satisfies my soul while grounding me during the emotional upheaval of my young daugher-in-law’s cancer struggle.  Stage 4.

I believe that I am making a difference.  Continue reading “Helping myself and others…”

Carpe Diem

Happiness.

Not in another place but this place.

Not for another hour but this hour.

~Walt Whitman, American Poet, 1819-1892 Continue reading “Carpe Diem”

My heart is heavy

I feel so helpless.  I can’t do anything about my daughter-in-law’s cancer other than pray and be there for her, my son and their toddler.  Continue reading “My heart is heavy”